Satan wants to use whatever he can to destroy us. For me, it is sugar. For you or others, it might be something else! Everyone’s journey looks different in this area.
Living in Mexico as a child, I received many gifts of candy! My babysitter always gave me candy. Candy and sweets was cheap and a reward for everything I did good.
My parents cooked healthy meals and we ate good! I’m so thankful to my parents for giving me an amazing life filled with happiness and joy! Unfortunately they were not aware of the harmful affects of sugar at the time. They thought food was fine as long as there was no fat. American food companies were making everything with less fat, but to help it taste better they added lots of sugar.
Now, America knows now that adding sugar is a lot worse on our bodies than healthy fat. Unhealthy fat is still bad for us of course. Healthy fat like Avocados, Coconut, Nuts, Seeds, and grass fed whole dairy products actually help our body and brain maintain health!
I struggled with the world’s view and God’s view of body image. I believed more what the world taught about body image and compared myself to thin women.
My struggle went beyond body image. It was more science driven, but I could never figure it out. The American government was not accurate in their advice about health. The pyramid showed carbohydrates were supposed to be our biggest food group during the day. Now, we know this is all wrong.
When I was 13 years old, I can vividly remember myself sitting in the kitchen on a stool saying to myself, “I want to die.” I was so overcome with the cravings and the way I felt, I really didn’t want to live anymore. I had a “perfect” home with loving parents! It was absolutely absurd that I would even have those thoughts! I never attempted anything, but the feelings came and went periodically.
Now I know, those feelings were real and I had those feelings recently before quitting sugar for good.
The research shows that sugar acts just like cocaine in a person’s body. The endorphins it releases to the brain are the same endorphins that cocaine releases. It’s also been proven that added sugar can be 8x more addictive than cocaine.
My oldest child is now 11 years old. She has seen me walk through the trials of trying to give up sugar and then failing time after time.
Before writing that poem, I had hit rock bottom in my mood, personality, mindset, and ability to function consistently and to be disciplined.
I realized that when I eat added sugar, I become someone I don’t want to be. I feel helpless and out of control. I feel depressed and lifeless.
Quitting added sugar for good has been the best thing that I could ever do to help God help me! God wants to help me, but He can’t when I’m putting a substance that is harmful to me in my body every day!
I feel like a million dollars when I don’t eat any sugar! I can be disciplined! I can keep a better consistent schedule! My mind and brain feel free and clear since I have quit sugar!
My sister in law, Isabel, reminded me that we as women will never be satisfied with our figures as long as we keep looking to the world’s standards. She said, we must not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of our minds. Our goal, she said, is to be effective, not to look a certain way or to fit in a pair of jeans. Those are worldly thoughts that will never bring satisfaction to us.
I believe this is one of the most important things on my journey right now. As I seek to lose weight and feel healthy, my number one goal is to be able to be effective in all that God has called me to do! Keeping my eyes on Jesus and off of the idol of my body will keep me in line with His will! Then Satan won’t be able to use the idolatry of our bodies to get us off track!
I had recently went back to sugar for about 3 days during the New Years, and I was more convinced than ever how much I am disgusted with my ineffectiveness when I consume any added sugar.
Our bodies were never meant to consume large amounts of added sugar in one day! We already get natural sugar from all foods containing any carbohydrates! We must control the amount of carbohydrates we eat so our body doesn’t get too much natural sugar either.
I feel amazing and effective right now. I don’t feel depressed or moody. I have a clear mind and clear vision. I’m so thankful to God for continuing to show me this tool that Satan has been using my whole life to destroy me. Satan will not bring me down any more with sugar. Greater is He who is in me than He that is in the world.